i dunno y.. but i was still ok when i walked back to hall with miling jus now... but the moment i stepped into my room.. i felt so lonely and depressed.... dunno wat's got over me to make me feel this way... i really hav no explanation for this.. and den i closed my door.. and felt so so lonely that i feel like crying.. the worst thing was that nobody whom i could confide in was ard.. both my neighbours not ard.. and msn-ed some ppl.. no reply. one tried to cheer me up.. but to no avail.. but i appreciated the effort made... and den i talked to julian... and started talking and talking.. and i did feel a bit better after that.... knowing that i still got somebody whom i could talk to...
well anyway.... points are out.. been contemplating whether i wan to stay or not.. if i were to stay, i would wan to maintain my rm.. as i dun wan double room... right from the start, long ago, i've set my mind to stay till end of yr 2 and it's bye to hall.. yr 3 will b at home... from the v start when i told him, he said ok mah, since i stay so near sch... hmm.. agreeable. as the time draws near, like now.... when i told him, he told me to try for the room again, if i get it, i still can decide later whether i wan the room or not... when i told him someone's asking me if i wan to take my room back, he asked me if there are other rooms along the stretch available... although he didn't say explicitly.. but it's obvious.. and this is really making me wonder if i want to stay or not.. but i'm more towards not staying.... but still.. there are still thoughts inside my head.... which is such a headache, considering that all my projects for this sem are not started at all.. and exams are jus one more month plus away!
if i were to move home, been thinking.. i can eat my mum's home-cooked food again, i can watch tv.. i can spend more time with my family.. i will be more willing to go out if friends jio me.. cos normally when i am in hall.. i won't feel like goin out.. the thought of travelling to and fro make me sian... although i do meet up with frens still....
but.... i will so so so so miss hall life, and the friends i've made in hall.... if i were to move back home, i doubt i will get to see them often... i will sure miss that.... and also... the person i will sure miss the most is him... think i will miss him like crazy.... knowing that i can't see him whenever i wan to.. unlike now, jus 3 levels down and i will b able to see him... tis is making me so mao dun.
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